I have failed a client
It’s Saturday evening and as I began to finish up my last reading before a couple of days of much needed rest, I opened an email from the client. What I was about to read and experience surly I was not in any way prepared for as I spent to next three hours sobbing uncontrollably.
I realize in retrospect that some if not most of the emotion that had overwhelmed me was likely only para-emotionalism or feeling the pain or emotion of your client. But I felt a since of loss and disappointment my self that was beyond words.
The client began her email by saying, “In my last session, you told me I would be pregnant with twins that would be due in November.” As a side note, I believe that when I had told her this would occur, she must have thought me to be completely insane. She then said “YOU WERE RIGHT”. Then went on to explain in April she found out that she was indeed pregnant with twins and they would have been due in November, just as I had told her. “Unfortunately she said, one of the twins went into the uterus as it should have but the other remained in the fallopian tube.” The client had to have emergency surgery and lost both children.
The client likely returned to me for another reading because of the high degree of accuracy in her first session with me. I do not remember the details of her first session, I truly don’t – On average I do well over 100 readings/sessions per month sometimes and my memory just can’t hold details of every single one. But I suppose I feel as though I let this client down. Again, I do not remember specifics of her first reading, but even if I had actually been able to see the loss of her twins, how on heaven and earth do you tell someone something such as that?!? Is that why I didn’t “see” the loss in her first reading? Did I see the loss and was I merely happy she didn’t specifically ask if I could see a healthy delivery? Honestly I think I would have told her if I had been able to see it – But I just don’t know.
One of the few times I’ve heard my Godforce speak directly to me in life, I was told very clearly and in no uncertain terms. “Prepare yourself, you will see much good, but also you will see much sadness and cause for grief”. Now, I’m taking that to mean, at least I did at the time, that yeah, sure I’d see good things that were going to happen in peoples lives, but also I would see the bad things.
Aside from my profound since of failure in being able to assist this client it all begs the question: Suppose I was able to see this occurring? How do you tell someone whom likely purchased a $20 reading “just for fun” that while yes, they would get pregnant and surprise, surprise! It’s twins too! How would/could you then turn around and say but there are complications and you will lose both babies. Could I do it? Is that the reason I didn’t see the loss? Because I couldn’t have told her this? Is this why I have failed my client?
I blogged this, because it’s late and Carl has gone to pick up the girls for their summer visit with us, I had to get it off my chest, though I’ll tell you I’m still no closer to answering my own questions.
I realize in retrospect that some if not most of the emotion that had overwhelmed me was likely only para-emotionalism or feeling the pain or emotion of your client. But I felt a since of loss and disappointment my self that was beyond words.
The client began her email by saying, “In my last session, you told me I would be pregnant with twins that would be due in November.” As a side note, I believe that when I had told her this would occur, she must have thought me to be completely insane. She then said “YOU WERE RIGHT”. Then went on to explain in April she found out that she was indeed pregnant with twins and they would have been due in November, just as I had told her. “Unfortunately she said, one of the twins went into the uterus as it should have but the other remained in the fallopian tube.” The client had to have emergency surgery and lost both children.
The client likely returned to me for another reading because of the high degree of accuracy in her first session with me. I do not remember the details of her first session, I truly don’t – On average I do well over 100 readings/sessions per month sometimes and my memory just can’t hold details of every single one. But I suppose I feel as though I let this client down. Again, I do not remember specifics of her first reading, but even if I had actually been able to see the loss of her twins, how on heaven and earth do you tell someone something such as that?!? Is that why I didn’t “see” the loss in her first reading? Did I see the loss and was I merely happy she didn’t specifically ask if I could see a healthy delivery? Honestly I think I would have told her if I had been able to see it – But I just don’t know.
One of the few times I’ve heard my Godforce speak directly to me in life, I was told very clearly and in no uncertain terms. “Prepare yourself, you will see much good, but also you will see much sadness and cause for grief”. Now, I’m taking that to mean, at least I did at the time, that yeah, sure I’d see good things that were going to happen in peoples lives, but also I would see the bad things.
Aside from my profound since of failure in being able to assist this client it all begs the question: Suppose I was able to see this occurring? How do you tell someone whom likely purchased a $20 reading “just for fun” that while yes, they would get pregnant and surprise, surprise! It’s twins too! How would/could you then turn around and say but there are complications and you will lose both babies. Could I do it? Is that the reason I didn’t see the loss? Because I couldn’t have told her this? Is this why I have failed my client?
I blogged this, because it’s late and Carl has gone to pick up the girls for their summer visit with us, I had to get it off my chest, though I’ll tell you I’m still no closer to answering my own questions.
posted by Shane at 8:08 AM
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